I developed anxiety and my road to defeating it

The dark year is behind me and I am now ready to talk about it. 2020 has been a very difficult year for me. I have plans that was put on hold. A new employment that was delayed and just when I thought the worst is over I was temporarily laid-off. Some would say you just lost a job “temporarily”, others lost their life and or a loved one. The old me would have the same reaction. However, for someone who plans and think things through before making a decision, I was dumbfounded and beat myself up for not being able to foresee that this could happen. I thought I was okay, but I wasn’t. There are nights I couldn’t sleep. I overslept, I cried for no reason and felt scared of what tomorrow brings. That’s when I realized I’ve been having anxiety attacks.

Positive Habits I Developed This Year

You deserve a pat on the back for reaching the end of 2020.

It’s been a really rough year if not for all, for most of us. We’ve been forced to stay at home. I don’t want to relive the experience here. What I want to talk about are the things we managed to switch from negative into positive. Just like the habits you were able to develop while we were given a gift of time—a lot. Months of not working on our 9 to 5 jobs. Just a free time to spend on about anything. It was overwhelming, right? I was like, now that I have a lot of free time I don’t know what to do about it. It was scary knowing that in every tick of the clock it could be wasted on I don’t know. I don’t even have a plan.

How I spent the first 3 months in quarantine

When I first learned about the lockdown I did not know it was something I should be worried about because I was so excited thinking about my new work in a new company. Dream job and dream brands The first day in quarantine was supposed to be my first day at work too. Poor timing! Although back then I wasn’t thinking that way. I thought of it as a blessing that I’ll be able to take some days rest from all the hard work I put through working for my previous company. I started binge watching on Netflix but the quarantine was extended so I started doing Tiktoks. It was then extended for another 2 weeks, so I learned SketchUp and made a 3D model of my brother’s new house.